So why do I side with EQUAL RIGHTS FOR ALL? Because I think the world needs to see more love.
I don't know what the statistics are for divorce. I don't. But I do know it is staggering. I think it is ridiculous that people even try to use the argument about gay marriage "destroying the sanctity of marriage" when DIVORCE is what is killing the sanctity of marriage. And this is "Christians" and non Christians alike. Don't take that stand when your numbers are failing. That's just stupid. I have been married for 22 years. And what I have noticed as I look around and pay attention, because that is what I do, I am finding more and more couples my age that have been married the same amount of time. I'm talking SAME-SEX couples. They my not have been "officially" married because many states are only recently getting around to legalizing it, but they have BEEN TOGETHER the same amount of time. They are COMMITTED to one person, same as me. And do you know what I also noticed? More and more (Straight) couples I thought would be together forever, have gotten divorced. Therefore, that "sanctity of marriage" line doesn't work on me. One think I know is that marriage is hard and for 2 people to stick it out through thick and thin it is not easy. And if straight couples can't do it, why tell the same-sex couples they can't? Because they ARE!
Some of the most loving relationships I am glad to be friends with are Will and Jeff. I LOVE how sweet and romantic they are after so many years. Their commitment and love is an inspiration. YES, even to a straight woman! Because it is about LOVE.
Other couples I know online, but don't actually "know" all that well, but I am so thankful for Facebook etc so I have the opportunity to get to know them in the future:
Andrew and Mike
Andrew and Dominic.
Kage and HH
Michele and Jenn
David and Marc
Rick and Bruce
J. Scott and Mark
Ken and Andy
Jay and Andreas
Paul and Dennis
K.A. and her partner ( I forgot her name)
Ryan and his partner
as well as younger, committed couples like:
Michael and Anthony
Domenico and Serhan
TJ and Eric
and two of my favorite people: Matty and Brad
Many of the above have done posts recently about Gay Pride and what it means to them. Because of this, I have been pondering what it means to me.
There is a lot to say about how I feel but I don't know that it will all make sense. My brain hops around a lot. PRIDE… what does that mean to me as a straight woman?
The Gay Pride festivals and parades that go on now, in recent years, are the expression of being able FINALLY to be out of the closet by choice. People do still chose to keep their sexuality a secret, but more and more I think folks are finding they don't HAVE TO. They are now taking PRIDE in who they are without fear. I look forward to a time when all people can do this and not have to fear judgment, ridicule, and harassment. To find the love of your life is not a given. And if you do find love, I don't think you should be persecuted for it.
I think I have stated somewhere before that I am a Christian. Yes, I am a conservative, straight, married, Christian woman who believes in gay rights because I see them as HUMAN rights. To me, this is not a religious battle or matter, it is about being HUMAN and realizing people want and need to love. I don't believe love comes easy. I think HATE comes easy. I think selfishness comes easy. But I think LOVE takes more effort. Love at first sight can happen, it happened to me, but just being in love for the first or 20th time doesn't mean it will last all by itself. Love and commitment take work. And in my opinion, If two people, same sex or not, find the strength and courage to commit themselves to one another, then STOP persecuting them because of love. There are plenty of other things to go after! How about other countries who KILL people for loving. Huh? People are beaten and jailed in other countries simply for showing feelings for the same sex. That's just dumb.
Gay Pride? What does that mean? I think I also take Pride in a country that is rising above other parts of the world and allowing same-sex couples to join together LEGALLY and show the world the commitment they had most likely for YEARS before they could have it on paper. I have a piece of paper too. It states I am not an individual, but part of a couple. It makes a difference. To me. I am not in this life alone. I am in it with my husband. (And my 3 kids) We are a family. I take pride in that, so I support others as they strive to unite and feel that same pride. I have MY family, and I think they should be allowed to seek to create theirs!
Gay Pride…. I personally have lived a double life in the past. For years, I lied about myself and what I wrote and what I felt all because a handful of men thought writing a gay romance novel was the most evil thing ever and that I had influenced a few boys to be gay. (I made them gay… LOL) I shut down and split myself. I was one way (wife and mother) around everyone, and then when by myself I got to let the writer out. But I hid what I did for years. Out of fear. I was essentially "closeted" so I could continue to write what was passionately rising in my heart. I had stories I HAD to tell. Hence, When Love is Not Enough came out of my pain. Jimmy was me. Unlike Jimmy, I was not suicidal. My therapist even agreed. But I felt a deep sense of pain and aloneness from losing ALL my friends that year. I felt alone. But I also felt like I had a calling and gift from God. I even told the one pastor who demanded I repent and delete my website etc, that he should pray my story changes as I saw it as a gift from God. I was writing comedy then (book here) and my story DID change. I felt pain and loss and fear and aloneness and persecution… all things that maybe others out there could relate to. Because of what I went through, I saw things and dreamed things that would never have happened except that NOW I felt them. I think my story include persecution because that is the world I live in right now. I write about suicide, hate crimes, and bullying, because that is where the world is, and I add the HEA because that is where the world needs to go!
Does that mean I can relate to being in the closet as a gay man? Um, NO! Definitely not. But maybe I can imagine it enough to write passionately about a subject that I hope will die out like the dinosaurs. I dream of a world where people will call it "history" when referring to times when two men, or two women hid their relationship.
Gay Pride?…… something maybe I aspire to. People march in parades to show pride for being who they are. In recent years I have been striving to do just that. I want to be myself all the time, in front of everyone. I WANT to take pride in being who I am. Isn't that the essence of PRIDE?
Who am I? I am a straight, white, married, Christian, woman who writes M/M romantic fiction, and believes in Human rights and rights for the LGBT community to love and marry like everyone else if they chose to. Commitment should not be denied.
Pride is about being PROUD of being who you are all the time without apology.
I'm trying to be that. Are you?