And "pantsting" is not a word. I know.
I have been plotting. Not plotting a murder or plotting a way to rob a bank, but plotting my WIP. (Work in Progress). Misplaced Affection is over 80,000 words but where it sits right now, I don't know. I was paying attention to word count the other week because I was writing a lot and adding scenes, but this week NOT SO MUCH. I've been cutting things and rearranging scenes and plotting what will happen next. I am at a point where I can't pay attention to word count and words written and I think sometimes that can be a downer for a writer. It is for me.
I like to see the words count rise!
But sometimes writing is more than adding words. And I struggle with letting go of the "word count" because that is tangible proof I did something. But so much of what I do is on my head. I drive a lot, so while in my car I think about what comes next. I think about the progression of characters and what scenes I have to have and which ones I just want to have. When it comes down to culling words because the book is too long or it drags, the scenes I "want" to have can be cut if need be. Things I write are supposed to advance the plot. So knowing the plot is really a big deal. You have to KNOW where you are going.
I used to be a "pantster" (if I spelled that right.) I wrote by the seat of my pants and added whatever, wherever, as the mood or muse lead. Not so much anymore. I mean, I DO write haphazardly and sometimes I write a scene that I have no idea where it is going, but I do that less and less. I have to plot. I am learning that I may have a brain like a pinball machine, but I also want to write with meaning and intent. If my stories are to have layers of meaning and depth, then I have to plan what my characters go through. I have to PLAN what happens and how each scene fits in with the rest. I also know that writing more than two characters takes patience and concentration for me. It is always easier to stick with the main TWO and only interact with them. It is about them an how they fall in love. BUT, people do not live in a vacuum. There are family and friends and neighbors to take into account. Where do the characters work? What are their interests? So many things to PLAN AND PLOT. I can't fly by the seat of my pants because then I will have to rewrite and delete too many things when I go through edits.
So, I've been plotting. I had torn apart my manuscript (MS) last week and so the word count was hard to gauge. I am now adding scenes back in where they need to go. I HOPE this book makes sense to you all. I always worry about being boring but I am not sure you will have time to breath, let alone be bored. IF I pull this off, that is. It is a complicated plot with lots going on.
Another thing I realized is that I am SO not out to make money. Sad, but true. I know when this comes out, some might think of ways I COULD have done this to market it better and work the system in my favor. This book naturally falls into 3 sections. I did it that way on purpose. I COULD have done 3 novellas. I COULD have written them and published them separately, a month apart. and then down the line done a "box set" or something. But I just can't do that. This book came to me this way. My brain thought of what I wanted to do , but as one whole. I feel like if I wrote it and published it as three separate parts, I would be betraying my conscience and only publishing it that way to make money. It is not supposed to be about the money. I WANT money, I would LIKE money, but I can't be motivated by MONEY. That is not why I write.
I write to present the issues. I write to present LIFE and CULTURE as it is, or as I see it! I write to touch people's lives. I do not want to get caught up in the "writing for money" and lose my passion for my characters as they need to be written. I'm not out for popularity, I'm out for integrity.
Now, that said, I would not turn down money or popularity if it comes my way on its own. Getting paid to write is the dream job! I want to be able to support my family doing what I love. And being popular can be plain FUN… as well as being a burden. Wasn't it Spiderman's uncle that told him with great power comes great responsibility? My words have power, therefore I need to take care to write them with integrity and humility.
Help me, dear fans and readers. Help me to be a writer like that. Call me out on shit. PLEASE.
I guess that is all for now. Back to writing. Back to plotting.
I am on ZA Maxfield's Blog on July 1st. for TEASER TUESDAYS. I'll list an excerpt from NAMES. I wanted SO BAD to have a pub date by now, but I don't. I'll post as soon as I know. But please, stop by ZAM's post and leave a comment. There is also a giveaway of something from my back list. (It's SOOO long.) I can only give away PDF files. Sorry. Go visit her!
And if you are on Facebook, don't forget to join the Wade Brigade. Or PM me to join it.
Sunday, June 29, 2014
Tuesday, June 24, 2014
On that crazy TREADMILL called Life!
Well, I'm a bit tuckered out and the "summer" sort of just started. The kids have been home for 8 days. There are 62 days left of summer vacation for them and then it is back to school. It goes TOO fast if you ask me! They missed too many days over the winter because of snow in Maryland so I think they might have had another week of vacation. oh well. It was fun at the time.
With summer though, comes summer gymnastics schedules! It seems like I am constantly driving to the gym! (and not to workout.) My daughter goes 4 days a week, 3 of which are 12-4. RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF MY DAY! I am also trying to schedule fun things to do for the younger daughter because she is home alone (with me) often. I want her to see her friends too. Everybody's summer is busy it seems. My son is 18 and pretty self sufficient.
So how do I find time to write? THAT is a good question.
It is hard to find the time to write. I am not good at sitting and concentrating fully on one thing for hours on end. My mind wanders and I need to get up, spey away, and think about what I am writing next. In the last three weeks I have done well. I wrote over 10k one week, 11.2k the next week, and 7100 last week. Good totals as far as I am concerned. THEN, I got the galley proof for NAMES and the writing screeched to a halt. Do not get me wrong, I AM SUPER GLAD got the galley because that is one step closer to publication! The LAST TIME I sent the Galley back (with The Cost of Loving) I had a publication date several dates later and TCOL was on the DSP "coming soon" page by that weekend. Thing have gone slower this time so I am not holding my breath. The elapsed time between 3rd edits and the galley was twice as long as last year. I am attributing this to a busy publishing house. (I hope.) I'd like to think that Dreamspinner Press (DSP, MY PUBLISHER) is very busy and growing rapidly in the industry. With busy people things take longer. I hope that is it.
It could also be me. I am not a huge selling author. I write about one book a year. It doesn't help to calm my fears of being forgotten because I write too slow. THIS is why I rely on you, my readers and fans, because I can not keep up with prolific authors. My stories are different (I think). My stories are layered with deeper meaning and issues people face in life. I can't rush that. I strive to create characters who have different voices and unusual ideas. I reflect my own morals, beliefs, philosophies, and dare I say "preaching" in my characters. I want them to reflect something of ME. Don't forget me while I take longer than most to write. Please tell friends if you like my books.
Names Can Never Hurt Me (NAMES) is the one I have coming out this year. HELP me make a statement by showing DSP I have loving, loyal fans who will wait a year between publications and are still interested in buying my books! As soon as I have a buy link, I'll tell you. As soon as I have a date, I'll tell you! I have a sort of Blog Hop planned. I have 5 dates so far to be on different blogs around town to advertise my book. leave me a comment and tell me YOUR favorite BLOG and maybe I'll contact them for the circuit. :)
One things I want to say about NAMES is that it is DIFFERENT from my other stuff. I am ME and I can't write the same style all the time. The is not what I consider a "Wade Kelly Special" because for one, it is all one Point of View! ONE. That's right! The entire story is told from Nick's point of view! Very unlike me. And number two, NAMES is written in chronological order. NO FLASHBACKS or time jumps. ALL of it is one day after the other. (Very unlike me.) And thirdly, NAMES does not have a large amount of angst. No one dies. Even though JOCK was also low on the angst scale, it had flashbacks and multiple POVs. NAMES is rather tame. What does it off you? A very sweet romance between two very different men. This is a story of growth, and trust, and falling so deeply in love when you couldn't see it coming. It is about change and growing up. I HOPE you will love it as much as I do.
I finished the galley today and I did cry a little. I did. It was so touching. I love my characters. Nick, RC, Corey, Paul, Nick's mom, M-L, and Marcy, even Tara and Dawn as the mean girls. (NOT that I always write mean girls because I do not.) The really good part about finishing this story and getting ready for publication very soon, is knowing I already started writing the sequel! That's right. I have a sequel planned. Only Skin Deep is about Corey, so when you finish and you can't wait to find out what happens next (I hope) you can be comforted to know I will have another book coming. Probably next year. IDK. You know I take forever to write and DSP takes time to process my work.
On another note about writing, Misplaced Affection is coming along nicely. I guess it is around 80k. That leaves technically 30k to write since my goal was 110k. I will probably run over that, but I like to have a goal. It is lacking detail and needs to have completed parts before I will consider it done. Plus, I will have to do more drafts even though I edit as I write. With this book, compared to NAMES, I WOULD consider it a Wade Kelly Special. Multiple POVs, some flashbacks, LOTS of angst!, lots of tears. Some of it is painful to edit so you will most likely need tissues. Since regular publishing takes so VERY LONG, I was tinkering with self-pub for this one. It will help get my feet wet for self-pub should any of my sequels get shot down. The Cost of Loving was turned down several times. So, if book 3 in the Unconditional Love Series gets passed on, I will self-pub it (Once I have written it.) But what do you think? Is self-pubbing a good idea, or a bad one? I WILL have a professional cover, and I will hire and editor.
JOCK in German I think is doing pretty well. I am not completely sure. You can log on and create an account with "Novel Rank."Novel Rank dot com was referred to me by Lynley Wayne. On this site you can set up an account and basically track the sales of any book as long as you have the ASIN # from Amazon, or the ISBN #. I can track MY sales in several countries, or sales of any book I want. I am not completely sure how accurate it is, but it does tell me I have sold books in German so I am pleased.
Jock on the German Amazon. Sitting at #57 today on one list. :) and tomorrow it might be #87… always changing ;)
With summer though, comes summer gymnastics schedules! It seems like I am constantly driving to the gym! (and not to workout.) My daughter goes 4 days a week, 3 of which are 12-4. RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF MY DAY! I am also trying to schedule fun things to do for the younger daughter because she is home alone (with me) often. I want her to see her friends too. Everybody's summer is busy it seems. My son is 18 and pretty self sufficient.
So how do I find time to write? THAT is a good question.
It is hard to find the time to write. I am not good at sitting and concentrating fully on one thing for hours on end. My mind wanders and I need to get up, spey away, and think about what I am writing next. In the last three weeks I have done well. I wrote over 10k one week, 11.2k the next week, and 7100 last week. Good totals as far as I am concerned. THEN, I got the galley proof for NAMES and the writing screeched to a halt. Do not get me wrong, I AM SUPER GLAD got the galley because that is one step closer to publication! The LAST TIME I sent the Galley back (with The Cost of Loving) I had a publication date several dates later and TCOL was on the DSP "coming soon" page by that weekend. Thing have gone slower this time so I am not holding my breath. The elapsed time between 3rd edits and the galley was twice as long as last year. I am attributing this to a busy publishing house. (I hope.) I'd like to think that Dreamspinner Press (DSP, MY PUBLISHER) is very busy and growing rapidly in the industry. With busy people things take longer. I hope that is it.
It could also be me. I am not a huge selling author. I write about one book a year. It doesn't help to calm my fears of being forgotten because I write too slow. THIS is why I rely on you, my readers and fans, because I can not keep up with prolific authors. My stories are different (I think). My stories are layered with deeper meaning and issues people face in life. I can't rush that. I strive to create characters who have different voices and unusual ideas. I reflect my own morals, beliefs, philosophies, and dare I say "preaching" in my characters. I want them to reflect something of ME. Don't forget me while I take longer than most to write. Please tell friends if you like my books.
Names Can Never Hurt Me (NAMES) is the one I have coming out this year. HELP me make a statement by showing DSP I have loving, loyal fans who will wait a year between publications and are still interested in buying my books! As soon as I have a buy link, I'll tell you. As soon as I have a date, I'll tell you! I have a sort of Blog Hop planned. I have 5 dates so far to be on different blogs around town to advertise my book. leave me a comment and tell me YOUR favorite BLOG and maybe I'll contact them for the circuit. :)
One things I want to say about NAMES is that it is DIFFERENT from my other stuff. I am ME and I can't write the same style all the time. The is not what I consider a "Wade Kelly Special" because for one, it is all one Point of View! ONE. That's right! The entire story is told from Nick's point of view! Very unlike me. And number two, NAMES is written in chronological order. NO FLASHBACKS or time jumps. ALL of it is one day after the other. (Very unlike me.) And thirdly, NAMES does not have a large amount of angst. No one dies. Even though JOCK was also low on the angst scale, it had flashbacks and multiple POVs. NAMES is rather tame. What does it off you? A very sweet romance between two very different men. This is a story of growth, and trust, and falling so deeply in love when you couldn't see it coming. It is about change and growing up. I HOPE you will love it as much as I do.
I finished the galley today and I did cry a little. I did. It was so touching. I love my characters. Nick, RC, Corey, Paul, Nick's mom, M-L, and Marcy, even Tara and Dawn as the mean girls. (NOT that I always write mean girls because I do not.) The really good part about finishing this story and getting ready for publication very soon, is knowing I already started writing the sequel! That's right. I have a sequel planned. Only Skin Deep is about Corey, so when you finish and you can't wait to find out what happens next (I hope) you can be comforted to know I will have another book coming. Probably next year. IDK. You know I take forever to write and DSP takes time to process my work.
On another note about writing, Misplaced Affection is coming along nicely. I guess it is around 80k. That leaves technically 30k to write since my goal was 110k. I will probably run over that, but I like to have a goal. It is lacking detail and needs to have completed parts before I will consider it done. Plus, I will have to do more drafts even though I edit as I write. With this book, compared to NAMES, I WOULD consider it a Wade Kelly Special. Multiple POVs, some flashbacks, LOTS of angst!, lots of tears. Some of it is painful to edit so you will most likely need tissues. Since regular publishing takes so VERY LONG, I was tinkering with self-pub for this one. It will help get my feet wet for self-pub should any of my sequels get shot down. The Cost of Loving was turned down several times. So, if book 3 in the Unconditional Love Series gets passed on, I will self-pub it (Once I have written it.) But what do you think? Is self-pubbing a good idea, or a bad one? I WILL have a professional cover, and I will hire and editor.
JOCK in German I think is doing pretty well. I am not completely sure. You can log on and create an account with "Novel Rank."Novel Rank dot com was referred to me by Lynley Wayne. On this site you can set up an account and basically track the sales of any book as long as you have the ASIN # from Amazon, or the ISBN #. I can track MY sales in several countries, or sales of any book I want. I am not completely sure how accurate it is, but it does tell me I have sold books in German so I am pleased.
Jock on the German Amazon. Sitting at #57 today on one list. :) and tomorrow it might be #87… always changing ;)
So I guess that is all for today. I am busy driving all over town. I read for several days trying to get the galley all proofed over. I could 16 mistakes/ typos. I hope the finished product is acceptable and you will find it very clean. But hey, let me know! I'd like to see what you find that I missed. Help me improve my editing eyes!
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Over and out gang.
:) Wade
Wednesday, June 18, 2014
Gay PRIDE as a Straight Woman
I've been doing a lot of thinking. I think a lot. And often, I think it is because when I am SUPPOSED to be writing, my mind brings up little diversions to distract me. Like this morning with the NEW IDEA for another book! Like I need more of those. My mind is overwhelmed as it is! Anyway… This is JUNE. Gay Pride Month. And although I am not GAY, nor am I bisexual, I do support people who are LGBTQ etc… WHY? I have been thinking about this and trying to come up with what "Pride" means to me as a straight woman.
Nothing really. In and of itself. I am not LGBT and therefore I do not have the same deep down sense of PRIDE in the ability to be myself, in the open, love who I want, and not cower in shame. I don't. Not really. My life is not the same. I can not compare my struggles to that of the LGBT community over decades, centuries, etc… But I do however take pride in knowing people who do. I am very proud to have made some wonderful friends over the past few years who have taught me so much about love and what it means to truly love someone.
So why do I side with EQUAL RIGHTS FOR ALL? Because I think the world needs to see more love.
I don't know what the statistics are for divorce. I don't. But I do know it is staggering. I think it is ridiculous that people even try to use the argument about gay marriage "destroying the sanctity of marriage" when DIVORCE is what is killing the sanctity of marriage. And this is "Christians" and non Christians alike. Don't take that stand when your numbers are failing. That's just stupid. I have been married for 22 years. And what I have noticed as I look around and pay attention, because that is what I do, I am finding more and more couples my age that have been married the same amount of time. I'm talking SAME-SEX couples. They my not have been "officially" married because many states are only recently getting around to legalizing it, but they have BEEN TOGETHER the same amount of time. They are COMMITTED to one person, same as me. And do you know what I also noticed? More and more (Straight) couples I thought would be together forever, have gotten divorced. Therefore, that "sanctity of marriage" line doesn't work on me. One think I know is that marriage is hard and for 2 people to stick it out through thick and thin it is not easy. And if straight couples can't do it, why tell the same-sex couples they can't? Because they ARE!
Some of the most loving relationships I am glad to be friends with are Will and Jeff. I LOVE how sweet and romantic they are after so many years. Their commitment and love is an inspiration. YES, even to a straight woman! Because it is about LOVE.
Other couples I know online, but don't actually "know" all that well, but I am so thankful for Facebook etc so I have the opportunity to get to know them in the future:
Andrew and Mike
Andrew and Dominic.
Kage and HH
Michele and Jenn
David and Marc
Rick and Bruce
J. Scott and Mark
Ken and Andy
Jay and Andreas
Paul and Dennis
K.A. and her partner ( I forgot her name)
Ryan and his partner
as well as younger, committed couples like:
Michael and Anthony
Domenico and Serhan
TJ and Eric
and two of my favorite people: Matty and Brad
Many of the above have done posts recently about Gay Pride and what it means to them. Because of this, I have been pondering what it means to me.
There is a lot to say about how I feel but I don't know that it will all make sense. My brain hops around a lot. PRIDE… what does that mean to me as a straight woman?
The Gay Pride festivals and parades that go on now, in recent years, are the expression of being able FINALLY to be out of the closet by choice. People do still chose to keep their sexuality a secret, but more and more I think folks are finding they don't HAVE TO. They are now taking PRIDE in who they are without fear. I look forward to a time when all people can do this and not have to fear judgment, ridicule, and harassment. To find the love of your life is not a given. And if you do find love, I don't think you should be persecuted for it.
I think I have stated somewhere before that I am a Christian. Yes, I am a conservative, straight, married, Christian woman who believes in gay rights because I see them as HUMAN rights. To me, this is not a religious battle or matter, it is about being HUMAN and realizing people want and need to love. I don't believe love comes easy. I think HATE comes easy. I think selfishness comes easy. But I think LOVE takes more effort. Love at first sight can happen, it happened to me, but just being in love for the first or 20th time doesn't mean it will last all by itself. Love and commitment take work. And in my opinion, If two people, same sex or not, find the strength and courage to commit themselves to one another, then STOP persecuting them because of love. There are plenty of other things to go after! How about other countries who KILL people for loving. Huh? People are beaten and jailed in other countries simply for showing feelings for the same sex. That's just dumb.
Gay Pride? What does that mean? I think I also take Pride in a country that is rising above other parts of the world and allowing same-sex couples to join together LEGALLY and show the world the commitment they had most likely for YEARS before they could have it on paper. I have a piece of paper too. It states I am not an individual, but part of a couple. It makes a difference. To me. I am not in this life alone. I am in it with my husband. (And my 3 kids) We are a family. I take pride in that, so I support others as they strive to unite and feel that same pride. I have MY family, and I think they should be allowed to seek to create theirs!
Gay Pride…. I personally have lived a double life in the past. For years, I lied about myself and what I wrote and what I felt all because a handful of men thought writing a gay romance novel was the most evil thing ever and that I had influenced a few boys to be gay. (I made them gay… LOL) I shut down and split myself. I was one way (wife and mother) around everyone, and then when by myself I got to let the writer out. But I hid what I did for years. Out of fear. I was essentially "closeted" so I could continue to write what was passionately rising in my heart. I had stories I HAD to tell. Hence, When Love is Not Enough came out of my pain. Jimmy was me. Unlike Jimmy, I was not suicidal. My therapist even agreed. But I felt a deep sense of pain and aloneness from losing ALL my friends that year. I felt alone. But I also felt like I had a calling and gift from God. I even told the one pastor who demanded I repent and delete my website etc, that he should pray my story changes as I saw it as a gift from God. I was writing comedy then (book here) and my story DID change. I felt pain and loss and fear and aloneness and persecution… all things that maybe others out there could relate to. Because of what I went through, I saw things and dreamed things that would never have happened except that NOW I felt them. I think my story include persecution because that is the world I live in right now. I write about suicide, hate crimes, and bullying, because that is where the world is, and I add the HEA because that is where the world needs to go!
Does that mean I can relate to being in the closet as a gay man? Um, NO! Definitely not. But maybe I can imagine it enough to write passionately about a subject that I hope will die out like the dinosaurs. I dream of a world where people will call it "history" when referring to times when two men, or two women hid their relationship.
Gay Pride?…… something maybe I aspire to. People march in parades to show pride for being who they are. In recent years I have been striving to do just that. I want to be myself all the time, in front of everyone. I WANT to take pride in being who I am. Isn't that the essence of PRIDE?
Who am I? I am a straight, white, married, Christian, woman who writes M/M romantic fiction, and believes in Human rights and rights for the LGBT community to love and marry like everyone else if they chose to. Commitment should not be denied.
Pride is about being PROUD of being who you are all the time without apology.
I'm trying to be that. Are you?
xoxo
Wade
So why do I side with EQUAL RIGHTS FOR ALL? Because I think the world needs to see more love.
I don't know what the statistics are for divorce. I don't. But I do know it is staggering. I think it is ridiculous that people even try to use the argument about gay marriage "destroying the sanctity of marriage" when DIVORCE is what is killing the sanctity of marriage. And this is "Christians" and non Christians alike. Don't take that stand when your numbers are failing. That's just stupid. I have been married for 22 years. And what I have noticed as I look around and pay attention, because that is what I do, I am finding more and more couples my age that have been married the same amount of time. I'm talking SAME-SEX couples. They my not have been "officially" married because many states are only recently getting around to legalizing it, but they have BEEN TOGETHER the same amount of time. They are COMMITTED to one person, same as me. And do you know what I also noticed? More and more (Straight) couples I thought would be together forever, have gotten divorced. Therefore, that "sanctity of marriage" line doesn't work on me. One think I know is that marriage is hard and for 2 people to stick it out through thick and thin it is not easy. And if straight couples can't do it, why tell the same-sex couples they can't? Because they ARE!
Some of the most loving relationships I am glad to be friends with are Will and Jeff. I LOVE how sweet and romantic they are after so many years. Their commitment and love is an inspiration. YES, even to a straight woman! Because it is about LOVE.
Other couples I know online, but don't actually "know" all that well, but I am so thankful for Facebook etc so I have the opportunity to get to know them in the future:
Andrew and Mike
Andrew and Dominic.
Kage and HH
Michele and Jenn
David and Marc
Rick and Bruce
J. Scott and Mark
Ken and Andy
Jay and Andreas
Paul and Dennis
K.A. and her partner ( I forgot her name)
Ryan and his partner
as well as younger, committed couples like:
Michael and Anthony
Domenico and Serhan
TJ and Eric
and two of my favorite people: Matty and Brad
Many of the above have done posts recently about Gay Pride and what it means to them. Because of this, I have been pondering what it means to me.
There is a lot to say about how I feel but I don't know that it will all make sense. My brain hops around a lot. PRIDE… what does that mean to me as a straight woman?
The Gay Pride festivals and parades that go on now, in recent years, are the expression of being able FINALLY to be out of the closet by choice. People do still chose to keep their sexuality a secret, but more and more I think folks are finding they don't HAVE TO. They are now taking PRIDE in who they are without fear. I look forward to a time when all people can do this and not have to fear judgment, ridicule, and harassment. To find the love of your life is not a given. And if you do find love, I don't think you should be persecuted for it.
I think I have stated somewhere before that I am a Christian. Yes, I am a conservative, straight, married, Christian woman who believes in gay rights because I see them as HUMAN rights. To me, this is not a religious battle or matter, it is about being HUMAN and realizing people want and need to love. I don't believe love comes easy. I think HATE comes easy. I think selfishness comes easy. But I think LOVE takes more effort. Love at first sight can happen, it happened to me, but just being in love for the first or 20th time doesn't mean it will last all by itself. Love and commitment take work. And in my opinion, If two people, same sex or not, find the strength and courage to commit themselves to one another, then STOP persecuting them because of love. There are plenty of other things to go after! How about other countries who KILL people for loving. Huh? People are beaten and jailed in other countries simply for showing feelings for the same sex. That's just dumb.
Gay Pride? What does that mean? I think I also take Pride in a country that is rising above other parts of the world and allowing same-sex couples to join together LEGALLY and show the world the commitment they had most likely for YEARS before they could have it on paper. I have a piece of paper too. It states I am not an individual, but part of a couple. It makes a difference. To me. I am not in this life alone. I am in it with my husband. (And my 3 kids) We are a family. I take pride in that, so I support others as they strive to unite and feel that same pride. I have MY family, and I think they should be allowed to seek to create theirs!
Gay Pride…. I personally have lived a double life in the past. For years, I lied about myself and what I wrote and what I felt all because a handful of men thought writing a gay romance novel was the most evil thing ever and that I had influenced a few boys to be gay. (I made them gay… LOL) I shut down and split myself. I was one way (wife and mother) around everyone, and then when by myself I got to let the writer out. But I hid what I did for years. Out of fear. I was essentially "closeted" so I could continue to write what was passionately rising in my heart. I had stories I HAD to tell. Hence, When Love is Not Enough came out of my pain. Jimmy was me. Unlike Jimmy, I was not suicidal. My therapist even agreed. But I felt a deep sense of pain and aloneness from losing ALL my friends that year. I felt alone. But I also felt like I had a calling and gift from God. I even told the one pastor who demanded I repent and delete my website etc, that he should pray my story changes as I saw it as a gift from God. I was writing comedy then (book here) and my story DID change. I felt pain and loss and fear and aloneness and persecution… all things that maybe others out there could relate to. Because of what I went through, I saw things and dreamed things that would never have happened except that NOW I felt them. I think my story include persecution because that is the world I live in right now. I write about suicide, hate crimes, and bullying, because that is where the world is, and I add the HEA because that is where the world needs to go!
Does that mean I can relate to being in the closet as a gay man? Um, NO! Definitely not. But maybe I can imagine it enough to write passionately about a subject that I hope will die out like the dinosaurs. I dream of a world where people will call it "history" when referring to times when two men, or two women hid their relationship.
Gay Pride?…… something maybe I aspire to. People march in parades to show pride for being who they are. In recent years I have been striving to do just that. I want to be myself all the time, in front of everyone. I WANT to take pride in being who I am. Isn't that the essence of PRIDE?
Who am I? I am a straight, white, married, Christian, woman who writes M/M romantic fiction, and believes in Human rights and rights for the LGBT community to love and marry like everyone else if they chose to. Commitment should not be denied.
Pride is about being PROUD of being who you are all the time without apology.
I'm trying to be that. Are you?
xoxo
Wade
Monday, June 16, 2014
GERMAN "Sportler" coming your way TOMORROW!!!!
The German blurb is as follows:
Description:
Es ist leicht, zynisch zu
werden, wenn alles im Leben schiefläuft.
Cole Reid ist seit seinem
fünfzehnten Lebensjahr Außenseiter, nachdem er unbeabsichtigt von seinem
Mittelstufen-Baseballteam geoutet wurde. Seitdem haben seine obsessiven Zwänge
und seine sarkastische Art die meisten Menschen auf Abstand gehalten, außerdem
hasst ihn jeder, weil er schwul ist. Seiner Ansicht nach ist er dazu verdammt,
jeden potentiellen Freund automatisch zu vergraulen, platonisch oder
romantisch, wieso sollte er sich also bemühen?
Als er zu studieren beginnt,
entwickelt er sich endgültig zum pedantischen Einzelgänger—kein Problem,
zumindest bis sein vertrauter Mitbewohner auszieht und ihm Ellis Montgomery
zugeteilt wird. Ellis ist unordentlich, hübsch, hetero, und zu allem Überfluss
Sportler!
Während eines Semesters voller Verbindungskumpels, Campingausflügen
und überengagierten Eltern, entwickeln Ellis und Cole eine Freundschaft, die
Coles pessimistische Weltsicht auf den Kopf stellt. Ellis muss mehr sein als
ein amüsierwütiger Sportler—und vielleicht kann Coles wiedererwachende Libido
seine Hoffnung auf mehr als Kameradschaft in die Realität umsetzen.
Many of you have already read this. If you love it and have German speaking friends, please help spread the word of its release. I don't speak German and I can't get on twitter and start tweeting in German. LOL. I NEED my loyal and loving fans to support and help me out. You can pre order it HERE. Buying from Dreamspinner is always the best way to support me. (Direct from publishers is ALWAYS best for ever author!)
One of my favorite lines is:
“I
don’t think sin is as black and white as people want it to be. I think sin
comes in an array of colors, and one of them is so bright that it blinds us to
our ability to love. And if I don’t think I can love you just because you’re
gay, then Satan wins; because without love, the only color left is hate.”
I'm thinking of getting a T-shirt with this on the back and "Wade Brigade" on the front. Would you buy it? I'm going to look into it for GRL. I love the idea.Other news…. As disappointing as it will be to hear this, NAMES will not be out until August. I'm sorry. I can't do anything about it. My contract says July / August 2014. It's just that the way edits were going I thought it looked good compared to other books I've have done. But here I sit and wait for the next phase, (galley) and I sit and wait and sit and wait. It is what it is.
Question…. If I self published one, for a shorter time frame, would you still buy it? I would hire and editor and get a cover done by my graphic designer, but waiting 10 months after I finish Misplaced Affection does not fill me with excitement. IDK. I'm kicking it around. I'm a tiny little fish in a pool of fast swimming colorful fish who outshine me. I guess I get depressed sometimes because it takes me so very long to get anything done.
My husband calls me a hurricane, but there are times, like now, when I feel like a little puff of breath coming out of an asthmatic 85 yr old man. You have to hold me up out there when it seems like my wind is failing me. My fans have to shout louder than I do.
Help make JOCK … aka SPORTLER… HUGE!!!! for me. and then Names Can Never Hurt Me after that! Make a statement. Tell friends. Pre-order. Tweet. I don't know. Whatever you can think of to help me sell books. As an author, I think I really suck at marketing.
I love you all. Hang in there. I'm trying to!
Thursday, June 12, 2014
Reading Reviews
Yes, I do read reviews, although not as often as I used to. When I was first published, I trolled the Goodreads pages and Amazon for the newest comments about my book. I loved the good ones and the bad ones made me feel really really down. Since then, I have a different attitude toward reviews and I am simply glad for those who take the time to write any at all.
Writing reviews is hard. Especially if you write more than "I liked that book." Some of them obviously show great thought in what they wanted to say or convey a deep passion about the book they read. I am not so articulate and I often can't think of what I want to say about a book. AND, as an author, I tend to write short thoughts about the books I like, and I say nothing at all about the books I dislike. If I dislike something, I do no think I qualify as a critic to say "You suck at writing" when I am NOT selling New York Times Best Sellers. I have no space to talk when other people might like that particular book.
That said, Reviews are for readers, not authors. Yes, they make us feel better. Good reviews validate why we wrote the book… sometimes. Good reviews make us feel like it was worth while when someone "gets" our meaning or intent. But reviews are for all those thousands of readers out there who are looking for the next book to read. What I think is an awesome review, another reader might think "those are precisely the elements in a book that I loathe." And the converse is true as well. What one reader might rake me over the coals for and tell me how awful a writer I am, another might jump at the chance to read because they LOVE that very same stuff the other hated. (Note: I have met people who said these very same things.) So reviews, good and bad, are wonderful to get. Reviews sometimes catch readers attention, where NO reviews makes a reader suspect of it being uninteresting. Seeing reviews can cause other readers to think "Oh wow, there was something so moving about this book that someone took the TIME to write a review!" Good and Bad emotions are both GOOD.
I have also learned over time NOT to interact with people about reviews. Especially on Goodreads. Goodreads os a scary place sometimes. I often "like" a review, or I say "thank you" to nice reviews, but I do comment on bad ones. I do not expound on "liking" something, I read it, thank the reader for it, and move on. Why? Author etiquette. It is better to come off as quiet or shy or unengaging than to come off as a jerk. I don't want to be known as a jerk, would you?
There are also the people who take the time to write me personally via e-mail. I love those. I've spoken to some very nice people. Sometimes I wonder where they go when they stop messaging me. But again, etiquette, when do I respond or not respond and when do I leave it be? Sometimes I am unsure. I have to remember, for the most part, I am not friends with readers. You have picked up a book, liked it, and e-mailed me. Beyond that I have no idea who you are. So engaging people as though we are "buddies" is odd. I am not apposed to building friendships online. I have done this many times. Facebook is one social media that has brought many good people into my life. And if you want to get to know me, start there. If you're a FAN, join the Wade Brigade. If you like to TWEET, follow me on Twitter. Subscribe to my blog posts, OR "fan" me on Goodreads. And hey, if you are not linked to all these social media places and want to feel included, let me know. Some of you ONLY do e-mail. OR ONLY do Goodreads. Or ONLY do Twitter. I can link you up myself to the subscribe section of my blog and then my posts come directly to your e-mail, no internet surfing needed. All it takes is a shout out. writerwadekelly@gmail.com
Here is the spot on my BLOG PAGE to type your e-mail address. To the right, and it looks like this >>
Writing reviews is hard. Especially if you write more than "I liked that book." Some of them obviously show great thought in what they wanted to say or convey a deep passion about the book they read. I am not so articulate and I often can't think of what I want to say about a book. AND, as an author, I tend to write short thoughts about the books I like, and I say nothing at all about the books I dislike. If I dislike something, I do no think I qualify as a critic to say "You suck at writing" when I am NOT selling New York Times Best Sellers. I have no space to talk when other people might like that particular book.
That said, Reviews are for readers, not authors. Yes, they make us feel better. Good reviews validate why we wrote the book… sometimes. Good reviews make us feel like it was worth while when someone "gets" our meaning or intent. But reviews are for all those thousands of readers out there who are looking for the next book to read. What I think is an awesome review, another reader might think "those are precisely the elements in a book that I loathe." And the converse is true as well. What one reader might rake me over the coals for and tell me how awful a writer I am, another might jump at the chance to read because they LOVE that very same stuff the other hated. (Note: I have met people who said these very same things.) So reviews, good and bad, are wonderful to get. Reviews sometimes catch readers attention, where NO reviews makes a reader suspect of it being uninteresting. Seeing reviews can cause other readers to think "Oh wow, there was something so moving about this book that someone took the TIME to write a review!" Good and Bad emotions are both GOOD.
I have also learned over time NOT to interact with people about reviews. Especially on Goodreads. Goodreads os a scary place sometimes. I often "like" a review, or I say "thank you" to nice reviews, but I do comment on bad ones. I do not expound on "liking" something, I read it, thank the reader for it, and move on. Why? Author etiquette. It is better to come off as quiet or shy or unengaging than to come off as a jerk. I don't want to be known as a jerk, would you?
There are also the people who take the time to write me personally via e-mail. I love those. I've spoken to some very nice people. Sometimes I wonder where they go when they stop messaging me. But again, etiquette, when do I respond or not respond and when do I leave it be? Sometimes I am unsure. I have to remember, for the most part, I am not friends with readers. You have picked up a book, liked it, and e-mailed me. Beyond that I have no idea who you are. So engaging people as though we are "buddies" is odd. I am not apposed to building friendships online. I have done this many times. Facebook is one social media that has brought many good people into my life. And if you want to get to know me, start there. If you're a FAN, join the Wade Brigade. If you like to TWEET, follow me on Twitter. Subscribe to my blog posts, OR "fan" me on Goodreads. And hey, if you are not linked to all these social media places and want to feel included, let me know. Some of you ONLY do e-mail. OR ONLY do Goodreads. Or ONLY do Twitter. I can link you up myself to the subscribe section of my blog and then my posts come directly to your e-mail, no internet surfing needed. All it takes is a shout out. writerwadekelly@gmail.com
Here is the spot on my BLOG PAGE to type your e-mail address. To the right, and it looks like this >>
So, speaking about reviews. I love this one:
Terry's review Oct 21, 2013
5 of 5 stars
Read from October 20 to 21 2013
I started crying from the beginning and did not stop till 30 minutes after I finished.. What... An... Amazing... Author... I miss Jamie even now. I wish that Matt had figured out that it was really he that Jamie really loved. It was Darien that was Matt's first and last love (yeah I believe in forever) while Dare loved Jamie it was Matt that really showed Dare what true love really is. What a mess huh! Yet through it all and in the end you understand Love is not free, it cost you everything but you don't care because in loving and being loved by the same person it's worth everything you have to give and more. I miss Jamie. I hope they don't forget him. In a way he is the one responsible for them being together.. WHAT... AN... AMAZING... AUTHOR... I hate crying over a book, I want to hate her, but I can not the book is just too damn good. And besides She. Gets. Love!
Thanks Terry.
And this one was on AMAZON June 8th:
5.0 out of 5 stars awesome read, June 8, 2014
By Jasmine -
By Jasmine -
This review is from: When Love Is Not Enough (Unconditional Love Book 1) (Kindle Edition)
I have never left a review before but I feel that I should this time. I was the female version of darian and Matt and related to everything they were going through. Darian the sad broken romantic and matt the complete relationship commitment reject. Jamie was like my best friend in so many ways it was almost likethis book was about my best friend and I. The three way confusion for poor jamie must have been horrific like it was for my "jamie" .sadly my "jamie" didn't cope with the pressure of being gay either. This book has given me more answers than years of therapy has ever given me. Thank you wade xxxxx
I have never left a review before but I feel that I should this time. I was the female version of darian and Matt and related to everything they were going through. Darian the sad broken romantic and matt the complete relationship commitment reject. Jamie was like my best friend in so many ways it was almost likethis book was about my best friend and I. The three way confusion for poor jamie must have been horrific like it was for my "jamie" .sadly my "jamie" didn't cope with the pressure of being gay either. This book has given me more answers than years of therapy has ever given me. Thank you wade xxxxx
And this one was kind of cute about JOCK:
5.0 out of 5 stars My Roommate's a Jock? Well, Crap!, June 10, 2014
By Jere Adams -
This review is from: My Roommate's a Jock? Well, Crap! (Kindle Edition)
Very interesting subject - a gay guy having to room with a jock, and feeling quite miserable for a good while. The story concerns how they were able to come to terms with their sexuality. One has to feel a certain amount of empathy for both guys. I highly recommend the story to any reader who has an interest in the life of gay guys who aren't always accepted.
By Jere Adams -
Very interesting subject - a gay guy having to room with a jock, and feeling quite miserable for a good while. The story concerns how they were able to come to terms with their sexuality. One has to feel a certain amount of empathy for both guys. I highly recommend the story to any reader who has an interest in the life of gay guys who aren't always accepted.
JOCK, btw, comes out in GERMAN on June 17, 2014. If you speak German and read it, and you know readers who do NOT speak English, I am relying on you to spread the word. I don't speak German. The readers in Germany will not know about my book unless you help and and TELL them. :D Just saying'.
On the writing front, I have been busy. Misplaced Affection is coming along well. I wrote 9884 words last week and have done 6708 already this week. I have researched a few topics and I have rearranged scenes. I have thought about plot points. I am moving ahead. When ail I have more excerpts? When I have a complete story, I think. Too much too soon only aggravates ME and YOU.
Also, I have not heard anything about Names Can Never Hurt Me. As soon as I do, I will announce the date!! I can not wait.
i guess that is all for now. I need to get to writing. I am getting a new tattoo tonight if all goes well. It should be fun! Laterz.
Wade
xoxoxo
and PS: For those who have e-mailed, and then just "stopped", I do miss you. I do think about you. I do worry that I offended you in some way. I hope not. And to that one person who I haven't spoken to in almost two years, I hope you are okay. I miss you "M" ;)
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
a *"small, intimate, WORLD WIDE party" for J.P. Barnaby
*quoted from her FB post from yesterday…
Today is the world wide COVER REVEAL for
Thank you for stopping by and I hope you will buy the book and come back to tell me what you think.
And hey… if you don't want to buy the book, feel free to do something else J.P. would love…
Stop by and support Lost n Found Youth in Atlanta! GO HERE.
Today is the world wide COVER REVEAL for
A Heart for Robbie
Release date: July 11, 2014
Blurb:
Waiting for someone else’s child
to die so yours can live is the worst kind of Hell.
Celebrated Young Adult author
Julian Holmes pits the heroic characters in his Black Heart series against all
different kinds of monsters. But when a critical heart defect threatens his
son’s life, he finds he has no champion. No amount of books, classes, or
practice can prepare Julian for the fight to save his beautiful son’s life.
Suddenly there are hospitals,
transplant lists, and the nightmare of insurance red tape to navigate. In the
midst of his trouble, Julian meets Simon Phelps, the insurance coordinator for
Robbie’s case. Simon lives so deep in the closet he might never find his way
out, but he dreams of exactly what Julian has. Then one night, drunken need and
desperation brings them together, and a new fight begins.
The Pre-Order link is <HERE> so go on over to Dreamspinner Press and click it! :D
Let's make this a special day for J.P.! I met her in New Orleans at RT…. Well, actually, I met her in Atlanta at GRL, but was initially intimidated by her. She is so well known and I am little ol' me and I'm short and she's not. She didn't low me from anybody, and she's kind of quiet in the point and time I met her, and I'm all like "HEEYYYY", jumping up and down like an idiot while waving at Ken Murphy who was over by the elevator. Yes, I bet I gave a GREAT first impression! So, when I "met" her again in NOLA, it was different. I talked. I hugged her. She made me cry. Things were good.
J.P. is a very sweet person. I am honored to be a part of her WORLD WIDE cover reveal for her story coming in July. It is a story that means a great deal to her and I look forward to the tears as I read it ;)
Visit her website at: http://www.jpbarnaby.com
From her bio page:
As a bisexual woman, J.P. is a proud member of the GLBT community both
online and in her small town on the outskirts of Chicago. A member of Mensa,
she is described as brilliant but troubled, sweet but introverted, and talented
but deviant. She spends her days writing software and her nights writing
erotica, which is, of course, far more interesting. The spare time that she
carves out between her career and her novels is spent reading about the concept
of love, which, like some of her characters, she has never quite figured out
for herself.
Twitter: http://www.twitter.com/JPBarnaby
Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/JPBarnabyAnd hey… if you don't want to buy the book, feel free to do something else J.P. would love…
Stop by and support Lost n Found Youth in Atlanta! GO HERE.
Have a super terrific day!
And remember… JUNE is Gay Pride Month ;)
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